This week I had a regular dental cleaning and check-up. I
scheduled a facial the same day at an upscale spa using a gift card that I had
been given as a thank you gift. So I spent a couple of hours reclining while
other people did things to my face.
Being unable to move for a set period of time is an
interesting proposition. There is a forced passivity that can be disconcerting,
that can make me feel trapped. It is an extreme version of many moments that
happen many days – waiting in line, sitting in traffic. It feels like time
theft. What else could I be doing?
On the other hand, I get to do nothing. I have to do nothing. How do I “steal”
this time back? What is possible in these periods of “nothingness”? Since I
couldn’t exactly ignore what was happening when I was in the dental chair with
my mouth wide open, I did a kind of body scan of my face, head, and neck. I
noticed that, although I could dispassionately analyze the moments of
discomfort when they came, I still responded physiologically—my hands clenched,
I furrowed my brow, my shoulders hiked. I would breath and relax, but, like
stray thoughts during meditation, the tension would return again and again.
Yet, by focusing I became aware of how the act of tensing felt, how it radiated
out to other parts of my body. Clenching my hands affected my toes. Tensing my
shoulders sent ripples into my stomach and intestines. During the facial, a
significantly more pleasant experience, I focused on the sensations I felt: the
steam on my face, the cool wet cloth on my eyes, the warm table, my slightly
cold feet, the smell of mint and eucalyptus, the nature sounds recording
playing softly, the fingers of the aesthetician massaging my skin, and, oh yes,
the pain of extractions.
In the end, two hours of doing nothing but concentrating on
my physical body felt like a respite. I didn’t miss the cacophony of social
media, the news, and the silent demands that fill my brain when I am moving
through my day. (Replace that battery! Follow up with the speech therapist! Fill
out those insurance forms! Call B! Call M! Read this article!)